This Unknown

When will I wake up from this unknown?
All I want to see is real life
When will I look up from this unknown?
All I want to see is real life

When will it be real?
Can’t you show me it’s real?
When will it be real?

I fear the worst, is it worth the worry?
Or is this just the way it is?
I don’t have the time
To climb out of this brokenness
I’ve come to crave

I don’t want to live like this no more
No more
I want just to be with you
But not like this
I want just to be with you
But not like this

When will I wake up from this unknown?
All I want to see is real life
When will I look up from this unknown?
All I want to see is real life
Why don’t we look up from this unknown?
Don’t we want to see real life?

When will I just look up from my phone?
Don’t I want real life?

30,000 Feet

I remember dreaming with you
Spirit moving in our hearts
I guess I try and make it more than it was
Was it just a moment in time?

I remember sitting for a meal with you
We thought it wouldn’t be long
We’d be flying out together very soon
And the dream would begin

Safe to say, I didn’t think we’d part like this
Was it all for nothing?
I thought I was your brother, your ride or die
Well I guess I thought a lot of things

The culture and the Christ
Have you made a choice?
Where do your convictions lie?
I hope you know for yourself
Would you chase the dream at all costs
Even if it eats you alive?

You can’t take nothing with you when you leave
You're holding on to no one, what if they leave?
Your brother in the faith, you didn’t skip a beat
Just left him by the roadside

You can’t take nothing with you when you leave
You're holding on to no one, what if they leave?
Your brother in the faith, you didn’t skip a beat
Just left him by the roadside

Was it just to chase that 30000 feet?

How Many Times?

I’ve been trying really hard to solve something that I don’t fully understand
It’s been pushing me to do things that I’m sure don’t fit in your plan
How many times? 
Turn out the lights so they don’t see
Why would it matter anyway? 
Who cares if it’s only hurting me?

I’ve been trying really hard to solve something that I don’t fully understand
Feeling distant, know the reasons, don't do anything different, that’s the plan
How many times? 
Look around to find who might see
If you could mind your own business, it’d be better for you and me

If it’s hurting me
It isn’t just hurting me
A wounded soldier without a medic
Won’t be a brother for much longer

If it’s hurting me
Then it isn’t just hurting me
How many times until I turn on the lights?
And find my life has been torn into pieces
With no one else to blame but me

I’ve been trying really hard to solve something that I don’t fully understand
Yes I know I need to know you, but just knowing means I have to let you in
How many times? 
Never bat an eye when I don’t tell the truth
When will I see the signs that what I’m doing is what will become the death of me?

If it’s hurting me
It isn’t just hurting me
A wounded soldier without a medic
Won’t be a brother for much longer

If it’s hurting me
Then it isn’t just hurting me
How many times until I turn on the lights?
I hope this time it really hits me

That it hurts more than me
I should be responsible for me
A wounded soldier in need of a medic
You call me a brother, oh but I don’t deserve it
I don’t understand
When will I see your hand?

I’ve been trying really hard to solve something I don’t fully understand
Unmerited, undeserving for a wretch like me
How many times?

Great Tempest

Yeah, I guess I haven’t been doing okay
Yeah, I’ve been pretty good at hiding it though
I’ve been struggling to talk to you
To really get through

Cloudy, visionless
Walking where I don’t recognise
The trust you’ve earnt feels like less than the trust I give
So shatter me into a million pieces
I’ll be pretty good at hiding it though
Yeah, I guess I’m pretty good at hiding it

Green olive trees, beautiful with good fruit
A land of milk and honey, blessing upon blessing
Great tempest, blazing fire
Have mercy on me, have mercy

Green olive trees, beautiful with good fruit
A land of milk and honey, blessing upon blessing
Great tempest, blazing fire
Have mercy on me, have mercy

I've Been Looking For You

O Provider
Was that you talking back to me?
Distance, silence
Don’t mind me, I’m just running away again
But I’ve come to the end of the road
And I’ve been looking for you
I’m here arguing with the dead end
Maybe it’ll talk back to me

Every single step, a miraculous fall
A little bit more
Anoint my head with oil while I’m covered in your blood
Isn’t that just like you?

Trying to tend the garden every day
Tell me,
Will your glory ever govern my gaze?
What the hell’s left to do?
I’ve heard ask and I’ll receive
But if this pilgrim’s been deceived
Thinks he’s a star without light
Like the tree but without life
Can he still come to the end of the road
And say, I’ve been looking for you?

Long dark night of my soul
Surrender, surrender and fall
Be at rest

Every single step, a miraculous fall
A little bit more
Anoint my head with oil while I’m covered in your blood
Isn’t that just like you?

I’ve come to the end of the road
I’ve been looking for you

O Provider
Saw you on the playback
But I keep breaking the machine
Everyone was there, too
But i keep looking
Why do i keep looking?

Still Looking Up

Life has to change
Things start to fade
It don’t stay the same
But I keep holding on to things
I know you’ll need to pry out my hands

Madness in my hands, 
Where are you?
Separated, lost without you
Wounds without a word
Alone, now it’s deserved
Been searching for you, still
Looking up

Asking, where did you go?
How did you get so far from me?
Man, I wish I had known
And saw it laid out in front of me
Asking is this real life?
Asking am I the faithful kind?
While I’m down in the dust
With nothing left but a silent prayer
Wave my white flag and know
It’s all I can do
It’s all I can do
It’s all I can do
It’s all I can do

There’s nothing left to say
Nowhere that I can hide away
Just a man in his mess
Trying hard to retrace his steps
To love I had at the start
The one I had with a gentle heart
Its all I can do, its all I can do
Come back to you
And pray that you’ll move

Real life is change,
Faithful and strange,
All through it’s maze
Help me find my way